I am a woman out of the Lost & Found.
Woman.
Gosh, it’s been fast, the little girl feeling from first grade still a clear memory. How many annual calendar pages do you tear off in 40 years? 480. Beyond the 1/10 of the sheets that mark my prologue in Korea, my life divides into thirds. The first chapter written in NYC, the second in PA that suburbanized the college girl, the third in CA that ruralized the wife and mom. We live across from cows now.
Motherhood consumed me in its centripetal force. Okay, I let it – in my determination to be the best darned mom I knew how (any resolution cemented with best darned certain to unglue). What was it about turning 40 that felt so different? Was it the crest of my climb, a sure descent from here? Or could I borrow a lesson from Moses? He had it made until the mistake that cost him his crown to Egypt at 40. Surely he’d done himself in. The next forty years on the run he became a family man tending sheep. Little did he know God had all the time in the world and had him on training ground to humble and ready him to shepherd a nation out of slavery – in the four decades ahead. No coincidence that a human baby is full term at 40 weeks.
When I hit the age that embodies spiritual gestation, something happened. I remembered I was more than a mother. The woman God had created to reflect Him in her way had gone missing. I remembered that writing is how I breathe.
So I’m no longer holding my breath.
See the stones collected in the wayfaring, some posts light and colorful, others dense. Relationships, identity, learning, time, faith, hope, the physical, the invisible. I see God’s handprints everywhere. Whatever catches my eye in the journey, I hold up to you. I offer no secrets to growing a money tree, have no magic in these hands to captivate you with aesthetics. You’ll see some photos and videos but stories, largely, and what I hope you welcome as insight. The best I’ve got for you are words. Single guys read me as the moms do. Artists and writers have joined us. So I speak of it all – not just the parenting or my faith. But of the things we share in our humanity. The holistic journey.
Diana
Our art show is a group of 15 artists. 3 in our 60’s , 2 in their 90’s and many who only began serious watercolours after retirement!
I am overwhelmed and humbled by the number of followers you have.
Keep up the passion and I appreciate the encouragement and follow. =)
Love the way you write, delicate and sensitive yet thoroughly descriptive. ‘More than a mother’ >>> Love it!
I appreciate the encouragement and follow, Andy. Very sweet. Welcome!!
Diana
Love your writing! All the best in your wayfaring journeys.
Appreciate the follow, Mike. Thanks for connecting (THAT is blogging!). I’ll be happy to share in your journey as well.
Diana
Hi, Diana! I love the way you write! Great style!
Thanks for the support. =)
Thanks for following my blog I look forward to following yours.
Diana, I love this piece of writing on you About page. As I see everyone else does as well! Impressive following!!! I can tell what an amazing writer you are from this sampling of your breath. I can relate as a wanted-to-be-the-best- mother of two sons. They are teenagers now. About 5 years ago I decided to find out who I was. It’s been a fantastic journey. Still parenting but also living from my soul and I share the same breath as you. So glad we connected. 🙂
Suzanne
You certainly own your words, Suzanne. Look at you: they stream straight out of your heart. Love this: “I decided to find out who I was.. also living from my soul.” Thanks so much for sharing. Don’t stop writing. 😉
Diana
Haha! Suzanne here again….just realized I already follow you. So, back to say, thanks again for popping in and redirecting my attention back to your blog! : )
Ha ha. That’s why I visited. I make my rounds as a thanks and to share in the journey on the other side of this blog. In any case, enthusiasm is never late or out of season. =)
Hi Suzanne. Thanks for visiting my blog and liking my post. I’m glad I’ve found yours and will be back to read more. Great to meet you and keep those beautiful words coming. x
Not sure where you got Suzanne. *grin* But thank you for connecting and the promise to return. Enjoy the journey. =)
Diana
Oops! Sorry. I must start wearing my glasses. x
This is truly an inspiring Blog! I feel honored to be here! -Cezane
Aww. Thank you so much for the good word and follow.
Diana
Diana, I have a thought I’d like to share. If you care to follow it up, you can find me here:
https://yonasongoldson.com/contact-2/
Hi Diana – I found your blog because you liked one of my posts – thank you for doing that, because otherwise I would not have had the opportunity to read some of the wonderful things that you have posted here. You have a kind and tender heart and I feel privileged to be able to say this to you now.
Love that photograph by the way! Your husband? 🙂
I appreciated the informative post. Your writing is clear and the touch of humor is nice. =) I loved that authenticity is important to you as a writer. Thanks so much for your time, Robert. And I look fwd to sharing in your journey.
Diana
I just checked, and my heart says ‘yes’. 🙂
Hello and thank you for enjoying my Way Back in Time blog. Is that your picture when you got married? It’s beautiful!
Yes. =) I was the most fortunate beneficiary of the best photographer and make-up artist in town! Ha ha, but thanks.
I love your writing style! So refreshing and honest. Many blessings on your holistic journey.
I am blessed for bloggers like you who take the time. Thank you for connecting and for the follow. Welcome. =)
Diana
Hi Dianna,
Reading your “About” page made me feel as if I were watching a movie in which the lead actress narrates her experience as the prologue of a beautiful movie.
Glad to meet you here. Happy blogging and I look forward to reading your articles. Cheers!
Miggy
What amazing feedback. Thank you dearly for the support, Miggy. Welcome!!
Diana
My pleasure.
Diana,
Thank you for the like that brought me to your journey. Your writing reveals the beauty of your soul. I look forward to reading more.
Hi, Terri. =) Huh, not seeing you on the subscriber list but I sure appreciate the pledge of support. The title and the opening on that post caught my eye – I went to Univ of PA. Was a touching post. I was just thinking I need to do some Yoga today. Thanks for connecting, Terri. Keep up the great job blogging.
Diana
So my posting about Rabun Gap, Georgia, and the Hambidge Center attracted your attention. Perhaps it is something that you might want to look into for creativity. Best wishes. Thanks.
I loved your insights into your journey. There is nothing as important or as fulfilling as mothering, 24/7 guiding and loving a child, but gradually the relationship alters as it should and we begin to see other parts of ourselves again. You are a wordsmith and I am glad you are pursuing that love.
Thank you so much for the encouragement…and follow. It is not easy keeping up the unmother in me. (Possible to stop being a mother??) Welcome!
Diana
Your words is supposed to evoke sensation in the reader . The on-looker who passes by has the feeling of your writing being rained upon . Not the feeling that it is raining 🙂 ! But definitely it pours on more . 🙂
Rained upon. Hmmmm. =) Thank you.
🙂
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Hi Diana, wonderful writing and more than a mother….I, being the mummy daddy…as it were..,so get that!
Hope you don’t mind a new follower 😁
What a nice greeting. Mummy daddy, oh my. Bless your heart. Perhaps that is why fiction affords such escape for you, LOL. Your site looked appealing and it was obvious you’re passionate about fiction. I don’t mind too much the new follow, ha ha ha ha ha. Thanks so much for connecting. I appreciate the support.
Diana
Infer it does….otherwise I think I might go quite mad! Or maybe I have and an in denial…hmmm…there’s a conundrum! My site is still evolving…I’m not sold on the theme yet and find the sheer number available rather bewildering. Still, learning curves are good for the grey matter…I think. Lovely to meet you too 😊
Hi Diana. Blessings. Thank you for liking my very first post. As a result, I am now following your blog. Love your sensitive style of writing. Very informative, and riveting as well. God Bless You.
You sure know how to leave a comment. =) Thank you so much for the thoughtful read and support. Glad we’ll be sharing in one another’s journey. =)
Diana
Diana, I just reread this and it’s wonderful. You have a lovely, authentic way of presenting yourself. Many blessings to you, and so much joy on your journey. Thanks for visiting my blog. ☺
Thank you for connecting so sweetly. Keep shining. =)
Thanks for noticing Flaunted Freckles.
MFJ
I admire your passion and conviction. I was an art teacher for decades and always believed it was the child’s journey that was really important, and my role was to help them see the many paths.
Appreciate the thoughtful feedback, Sharon. A gem of a teacher you were.
Wish you joy in your own journey.
Diana
Great writing! I love all of the 40s in reference to Moses…I guess I never noticed that before.
=) Thx for sharing that. And for the follow. Welcome. =)
Diana
I just stumbled across your blog and I love your beautiful writing!
I appreciate that, Tamar. Thanks for the follow. Welcome! =)
Diana
Hi Diana! Thank so much for dropping in to my blog at:
Diaryofadedicateddiabetic.wordpress.com
Your “like,” of course showed me the way to your blog. Your writing is wonderful. So calming, almost meditative. Who doesn’t need that?
Life really is a journey. Thanks for showing me your “way.” Kudos!
Appreciate the thoughtful stop-in and follow.
Not all my writing is calm, ha ha ha.
Healing blessings,
Diana =)
Thank you for stopping by my blog and I’m glad you liked that post. Your Boy’s comments really made me laugh and think!
=)
I so identify with your “more than a mother” – writing is essential for some of us!
=)
I was ked in here and just can’t get enough. So many stuffs to read. I am definitely tagging along on this journey.
I can see that – and appreciate the good sentiment. Buckle your seatbelt. Let’s go!
Great story and blog!
Many thanks for stopping by and liking my Travel and Photography blog. 🙂
My pleasure. I appreciate the look around.
Feel free to follow mines as I follow yours: darellphilip.wordpress.com
Keep writing!
I appreciate the support. I do my best to keep up with readers, though I beg their patience. Takes a while to get to everyone.
Thank you for visiting my blog.
Your blog sounds like it will be a no holds barred tour. I look forward to reading your offerings.
Well done. :o)
You’ve made quite an impression with the “no holds barred tour”. We shall see, I suppose. =) Thank you for the follow.
Diana
Thanks for liking a post on The Expositrix!
(And I’ll agree: there’s something about 40 that makes you stand up and take note.)
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Nice to connect with you, I love your blog and your holistic approach
Sweet of you. I appreciate the follow. =)
Thanks for visiting my blog the other day and giving my recent blog post a like, I appreciate it. I suppose our blogs do have 1 thing in common though based on the headings. The fact that we’re both ‘finding our way’ but following different paths.
Hi! Just want to let you know I mentioned you HERE. 🙂
I relate to your story. We are all trying to find our way and the many phases of life leave both scars and gifts of learning. I look forward to following your blog. Thank you for traveling over to read my poems. I would appreciate any feedback you have to offer on my writing.
I liked “where the living happens”. But where you use the -ing for verbs, it weakens the writing. You might try saying it directly, employing simpler verbs. =) I hope I haven’t offended. I’ve guided many writers and poets in their process and only mean well…because you asked. I appreciate the support, Ali.
Oh wow. I appreciate this feedback. It is helpful to hear how another writer experiences my poetry. I welcome all your comments in the future. Never worry about offending me.
I appreciate the receptivity. I think you’ll find your words taking on a whole other color. =)
An interesting ‘About’ page. You have a way with words that keeps me hooked to the last line.
So pleased to hear that. Thanks so much for connecting and for the follow. =)
Hi Diana. Happy New Year. Looking forward to your encouraging posts for this year. Blessings.
Thank you. All the best. =)
You are a clever, and it seems like, also kind girl. Really rich and interesting blog. All the best!
Talk about kind: thank you for the hearty support. =)
Great sentiments expressed there.
Thank you. =)
I appreciate the follow.
No worries.
Thanks for taking a look at NotebookM and liking my post on Asian food truck deliveries via WeChat. Keep up your fine work here.
My pleasure. Appreciate your connecting. Have fun. =)
Thank you very much! for take your time visiting my fiction story. Your website is full of Faith, Justice and Love, very authentic. Again Thank you!
My pleasure. I appreciate the thoughtful word. Happy blogging.
Am enjoying your words very much — am passing on to my wife as well. Question: Where does one find kombu? With grateful appreciation.
Asian food markets or online health food retailers. A simple Google search will pull them up. =) Thank you for the good word and for sharing my work with the Mrs.
Hey, thanks for the like! Motherhood is a tough job, but sounds like you’re up for it. All the best to you!
Appreciate your connecting. Good thing it’s as much joy as it is sweat. You obviously care about your blog. Keep up the great postings.
You say the best you have for us are your words… and I love your words!
Looking forward to following you.
And YOURS are the first thing to greet me this morning. Aw, thank you much for the encouragement and support, Gabe. Welcome.
Hi Diana! It is so nice to meet you. Such a great “about” page which speaks from your heart such wisdom. Isn’t it true as the pages of life turn we see His hand more and more in the moments of our daily routines. Then we decide to share these moments with others resulting in joy being spread. Its going to be fun following along on your journey and seeing life through your eyes and words.
Thank you so much for connecting so warmly. We are not meant to do life alone. We learn also through sites like yours that allow us to experience the world beyond our own vicariously. I appreciate the follow.
Thank you. Keep writing because we are following and learning.
Love your poetry. The night did not prevail–good line. Thanks for bravely stopping by and surviving AHintOfLight.com