I am a woman out of the Lost & Found.
Woman.
Gosh, it’s been fast, the little girl feeling from first grade still a clear memory. How many annual calendar pages do you tear off in 40 years? 480. Beyond the 1/10 of the sheets that mark my prologue in Korea, my life divides into thirds. The first chapter written in NYC, the second in PA that suburbanized the college girl, the third in CA that ruralized the wife and mom. We live across from cows now.
Motherhood consumed me in its centripetal force. Okay, I let it – in my determination to be the best darned mom I knew how (any resolution cemented with best darned certain to unglue). What was it about turning 40 that felt so different? Was it the crest of my climb, a sure descent from here? Or could I borrow a lesson from Moses? He had it made until the mistake that cost him his crown to Egypt at 40. Surely he’d done himself in. The next forty years on the run he became a family man tending sheep. Little did he know God had all the time in the world and had him on training ground to humble and ready him to shepherd a nation out of slavery – in the four decades ahead. No coincidence that a human baby is full term at 40 weeks.
When I hit the age that embodies spiritual gestation, something happened. I remembered I was more than a mother. The woman God had created to reflect Him in her way had gone missing. I remembered that writing is how I breathe.
So I’m no longer holding my breath.
See the stones collected in the wayfaring, some posts light and colorful, others dense. Relationships, identity, learning, time, faith, hope, the physical, the invisible. I see God’s handprints everywhere. Whatever catches my eye in the journey, I hold up to you. I offer no secrets to growing a money tree, have no magic in these hands to captivate you with aesthetics. You’ll see some photos and videos but stories, largely, and what I hope you welcome as insight. The best I’ve got for you are words. Single guys read me as the moms do. Artists and writers have joined us. So I speak of it all – not just the parenting or my faith. But of the things we share in our humanity. The holistic journey.
Diana
Diana,
I am amazed that you took the time to visit and comment on my blog post. What a wonderful writer you are, I have certainly enjoyed my time here this morning. I am not a writer but I do love to read. I I will be reading and enjoying your posts as I can. I could spend hours here reading and enjoying if I had nothing else to do. Reading about the orchid blooming gave me a smile. That was nice after finding out about your son’s allergy to the other plants. I have no luck with pot plants and over the years I have been very surprised when one lived and bloomed for a time. Kudos to you orchids are not easy to grow and care for in my opinion.
Thank you for visiting my blog. Mags
Sweet of you to connect (so affirmingly). I appreciate the follow. Welcome. =)
Diana
SoundEagle would like to concur with Mags Pooh and Chancy about Diana and what she has been writing. Indeed, Diana writes expressively with conviction and vividness, and we are given glimpses of her mind and inner worlds on her published posts, each of which is a canvas in their own right, and each a gem encapsulating her insight. Thank you.
As for Diana’s foray into orchids, SoundEagle would like to offer you the opportunity to become a reader or follower of a special website at http://queenslandorchid.wordpress.com
Thank you for the good word. As my loyal following suggests, I do my best to support back the bloggers who put up likes and comments faithfully.
Thanks for reading my poetry Diana, feel free to write to me anytime. Peace and Love,
Patrick
Diana,
Just wanted to say thanks for stopping by my site and the like. I look forward to exploring your site further!
Charles
Thanks for connecting, Charles.
You have traveled far and wide, sharing what you have inside. your views are important, your poetic voice loud, thanks for sharing, you make us all proud.
Thank you, Dan. I appreciate your stepping in.
Beautifully put. Like you, forty was a big turning point for me. My life and voice had been on hold too, but for very different reasons. Here’s to what wonders forty and everything after has to offer us 🙂
Hear, hear. *clink* Hope you find release. =) Thanks for the follow!
Hi Diana,
Thanks for dropping by. Can totally relate to your ‘Change @ 40’ movement, as I am undergoing the same myself. Turned 40 in December, and realized that if I do not follow my dream of becoming a writer now, I probably never will. So quit my job as a media professional and started this blog, where I write one story a day, some are long, some are short, some with pictures, some without, some prose, some verse, but all 100% me! Cheerios.
Good to know your story. That’s awesome you’re nurturing your dream. I look fwd to seeing how it unfolds. =) Thx for the follow.
Nice to meet you! I love motherhood, but I agree that we need to still do something for ourselves.
We’ve met. I entered your site through your old follow notice. =) No worries. A lot of blogs out here, to say the least. Keep up the thoughtful blogging, Ipuna. Keep climbing.
Yes, there are a lot of blogs out there! You keep climbing as well! ❤️
I am constantly drawn to this page, and each time I come back, I find that I understand a bit more of what you’ve shared. It’s how I know I’ve grown a little more.
That is amazing, Uju. I love that all the more because you are not/yet a mother. Precisely what I said here. There is so much we share.
Walking (stumbling) alongside,
D.
words are my jai guru
across my universe
I just discovered your blog! Your writing is beautiful and resonates with me. Thank you for visiting my site and liking my latest post! I’m still new to blogging and value the feedback tremendously. Best wishes, Leslie
Hi Leslie, you’re username caught my eye, as you might surmise from this post. Welcome to blogosphere and A Holistic Journey. Keep the joy.
Yes I like the holistic idea of your title. I’ll give your blog a good read.
You do seem to be a clear and engaging writer. I’ll enjoy your blog.
I appreciate the good word and follow, Harry. Welcome. =)
Thanks for the like of my poem “The Causeway” – glad you enjoyed it and the encouragement is most welcome 🙂
Thanks for being so open about what faith, love, life and parenting has revealed and taught you on this journey through life. I hope you have many more adventures!
Neil
Thank you for connecting, Neil. And I appreciate the follow. Keep it going, and always, from the heart.
Hi Diana, thanks for dropping by and liked my post, it’s great to be connected.
Blessing to you.
Thx for the follow, Rose. Onward and upward.
Well said!
I am so glad that you like my post “First draft,” Diane, and that in visiting my blog you brought me to yours.
Hi Gina,
I saw that the intense writing had kept you away. Always a good thing in my book! Writing like that is a hard, joyful liberation. Thank you for your time and I’m glad to see you enjoyed my work.
Diana
Then holistic it be. 😉
You make me want to say Amen. =)
Then Amen it is. (Et ite misa est?)
Missa est. =)
I do indeed look forward to your poetry, as I indicated on your ” Late to the Party”. Wonderful work all!
Thank you so much for your time.
Thank you for the visit to my post about Cassini. The ‘like’ was liked. It looks like you have a strong presence and following. Good for you. Keep climbing, as you said in a recent post.
Thank you for the good word, Jim. Keep growing.
Interesting thoughts put into words. I like that you are taking a holistic view in your writing. Thanks for reading some of my blog posts. A lift to my spirit. Praying God will continue to give me His words, that will encourage others in their journey of life. Blessings in Christ, as you share your heart, thoughts, and life with others.
Thank you for connecting. =) Keep shining.
I too want to thank you for stopping by my site. I look forward to following your writing.
Hi Chuck, thank you so much for connecting. We write what our heart asks us to. =)
Thanks for the visit. I think back to when I was your age, so much energy, so little time. Now with the time I reach for the energy, it comes, but at a slower pace. It will shall be a pleasure to follow your Holistic journey.
Thank you for connecting. Time, energy, every bit is a sacred resource. I appreciate the support.
Very interesting and different blog about my life. I’m a new follower. I write about my life as well in a spiritual, allegorical way. I thought you might enjoy this post about being a mother.
https://overthehillontheyellowbrickroad.com/2017/10/31/conversation-withlittle-bo-peepa-bitter-empty-nester/
Thank you for taking time to visit my blogs. I hope to see more of you there.
Thank you for visiting/liking my blog. Your work is amazing! Such strong emotion.
Thanks for connecting, Madeline. The title of your latest post caught my eye. God bless your journey.
Thanks for visiting my site. I have enjoyed this blog very much and will keep reading these. You are a prolific writer with lots for our minds to soak in.
I appreciate your time. And thanks for the follow. =)
Thanks for following my blog, and for your like of my posts. It is good seeing your articles being posted. I wish you well in all that you do.
I love the way you express through words 🙂
Thank you. I appreciate your time here. =)
Your perceptions of the cycles in life are intuitively accurate. Sure life is for living … what we are looking at is what is looking 🙂
Perhaps all of life is just a reflection.
Yes, are we not light beings?
Wow Diana, I have to say, I’m humbled and honored that a writer of your magnitude found something good in one of my pieces! Such a great find. I’m looking forward to catching up on past posts and subscribed so I can catch the upcoming as well. Thank you again!
DB
Appreciate the support, SF. Happy blogging.
Hey D, just wanted to let you know my blog is now private. Anyway, you’ll need to ask for permission so I can grant you access. It’s easy, you’ll see.
Hope you’re doing fine.
This is such an excellent blog, insightful and inspiring. I try to do the same with mine. I’m still learning after all these years.
Thank you, Henry. Just enjoy the journey.
Nice to have come across your blog 🙂 Very Inspiring.
In the holistic journeys we take up in life, we find ourselves within.
Hope you enjoy my journeys on my blog, too.
Wish 2021 bring back our travel dreams.
Hi Diana! I hope you and your loved ones are safe and well. Missing your insightful musings here. Would love to read your thoughts on this stubborn pandemic. But you seem to have abandoned this site years before. Hope all’s well in your neck of the woods.
I would not abandon my baby. But unfortunately, sometimes life happens, and a separation is necessary. Appreciate your stopping by. Glad things seem well enough there for you to be browsing blogs. I wrote this at the start of the pandemic: https://holisticwayfarer.com/2020/04/23/the-present-crisis-life-down-to-its-essence/